April 6, 2008
A ray of sunshine in the darkened expanse (Personal Life)
Recently life has taken another strange twist for me. I've been radio silent for so long that trying to catch up on everything would be more than I can tolerate at this stage in the game. All things in time, as they say. For now, I provide a tiny glimpse, into only the most recent section of my life. However it is a glimpse of something quite significant. At least for me.
About a month ago now I had the nice oportunity to spend time with someone I had only known as an acquaintance in the past. A friend of a friend. We were in a bar local to me, along with our mutual friend and others. Somehow the flow of the evening allowed just me and this acquaintance to be left relatively alone, for an extended period of time.
Now anyone who knows me at all well, knows that I am shy, unsure of myself, closed off and generally hold a dislike of people who aren't close to me. In this particular circumstance I found little of those features to hold true. Somehow or another the two of us chatted for upwards of an hour, without interuption or lull in conversation. Thinking back now the topics themselves have become lost, but the feeling of having someone that I could talk to remained. Sadly she was up for only the weekend, as she lives south near Boston.
As fate would supply, I had training in Boston at the end of the following week. So made loose plans to meet up with her down there and hit up a pub, or at least grab a quick dinner. The quick dinner turned into a long evening, where I was supposed to be doing homework for the training, and I didn't get back to the hotel until around midnight. Similar events took place the following night, exepting that it was her birthday and a large number of her friends were out as well.
At the end of the week I was due to head back home, having many things to take care of that had been ignored due to the short week at home. She had also planned to return to the Upper Valley in order to celebrate her birthday with her hometown friends, having been from up this way originally. All of this resulted in seeing her for 5 days in a row.
As you may have guessed, or know already, weekends have now been split, half of them I go down to visit her, half she comes up here to visit me and her family. Never noticed the gas crunch till I started driving a couple hundred miles every other weekend. But I've also never cared less.
We've been officially dating for a few weeks now, and I can honestly say I've never been happier. From that first moment in the bar, everything has just seemed to click with both of us. Each has their unique flaws and troubled past, but none of that has mattered one bit. We've both been scared, particularly with the speed at which emotions fly into the face of a unknown storm, but neither of us has let up. In only a few short weeks we've built up a relationship that is stronger than any I've had before, even after years of hard work and patience.
For a long time I had given up hope, but now it has flooded back with the loving compasion of another. With the care and sensitivity of someone who isn't judging me, isn't trying to change who and what I am, someone who just wants to be loved and cared for, and returns the favor.
These are not the overly flowery and eloquent words that I have typed in the past. These are the quick thoughts and mental dump of someone who is truly happy for a moment in time, and hoping that that moment lasts forever.
Thank you, Emily, my love.
Posted by ehunt at April 6, 2008 11:20 PMTrackBack URL for this entry: http://movabletype.mindflight.org/mt-tb.cgi/507.
wow... i am at a loss for words. i've read it so many times, but still... you are wonderful, i love you!!!
Posted by: emily at April 11, 2008 5:35 PM