January 6, 2007
The rain falls for me (Personal Life)
So many things have happened since I last posted. Bought a house, got a couple roommates, had my car die on me twice. Work got sucky when my position changed, then started to get ok again. I've built a drainage system, and helped friends through tough times. Played video games, read new web comics, and watched a number of new tv shows. Started exercising more, then stopped again. Practiced my cooking skills, and ate out of lot. Lost friends, gained a very small number of new ones. Started to find myself...
But comparatively none of that means a damned thing. None of it is important. There was one thing in my life that was important, that was the foundation for everything else, that would have resulted in the end that I want, the things that I want to leave behind when I'm gone. That foundation was built, and I thought it was solid. So I built on top of it, buying a house, setting up retirement funds, not buying every stupid little toy I desired, growing into a semi-responsible adult. All with the end in mind, but without having the details of the path defined before me. I figured those could come as they will, I'm a flexible person. Never have said I had to do certain things at certain times, or stay in one place forever. But always the end was in sight. And I thought that it would come.
Now I know not what the future will hold. My solid foundation was ripped away without warning, and without good reason. I stand now on the edge of a precipice wondering whether to jump, climb down, or just look at the bottom for a while.
I think I'll sit for a while...
Posted by ehunt at January 6, 2007 3:35 PMTrackBack URL for this entry: http://movabletype.mindflight.org/mt-tb.cgi/501.
We'll be here if you need us Eli. Love ya buddy.
Posted by: Ann at January 8, 2007 9:09 PM