September 26, 2005
Ever wake up, but not really? (Dreams)
So I arrived home late last night after an eventful evening at the bar. That's another story, but I don't think particularly relevant to the dreams, though what do I know, I'm not a psychologist.
I was very tired, but couldn't just lie down and sleep immediately, so I turned on an episode of South Park. Amusing though it was I found myself nodding off most of the way through the show, so I turned off the TV, shut the laptop, killed the lights, and fell asleep.
But I’m asleep. I am still in the darkened bedroom. Still staring groggily at the ceiling. Then I hear something. Not sure what, but it is enough to startle me. At which point I wake.
I go to the bathroom, then crawl back into bed to let sleep take over once more. This time I drop off quickly and a normal dream comes. The details elude me, but it was probably something that involved strange and odd physics and/or realities. You know, normal dream stuff.
That lasts a few minutes, at which point I am pulled out of the dream.
I'm sitting awake again, staring at the ceiling in the dark. Watching the LEDs flash on the clock and the cable box. Listening to myself breathe. Thinking to myself "Great, another sleepless night!" I roll over. An arm grabs me!
I wake up. Starting at the ceiling, in a darkened room, LEDs flashing around me. This time my breathing is ragged, tense, I'm sweating. I turn on the light, there is no one there.
Returning to sleep, I hope that the oddities are over for the night.
One more. I'm dreaming again, but still in my room, in the dark, watching LEDs, waiting for blessed sleep to come. My consciousness clicks, I realize I'm already asleep, and this is a dream, I force myself to wake before something else appears in the dark.
I turn on some music and force myself to concentrate on that as I go to sleep for what I think is the fourth and hopefully last time.
It is still unclear how much of the night was real, and how much was a dream. Maybe I'm still asleep even now.
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